Beyond The Expectation: April 2010

Jogging and eating

Gosh!! I love it soo much. Jogging soothes things much and eventually I'M IN LOVE with it..Berape kali tercungap2 kt roadway keliling airport dgn kereta bertali arus pastu plak dgn panas pagi yg sakit mata..but yeah I truly enjoyed the moment with my besties as we woke up early in the morning (janji pukul 7.30am tp pegi pkul 8.15am~ Malaysian time) hahaha and strolling around UMK and went out jogged around the airport. We warmed up a little bit and started to jog. At the first shot, aku bape kali panting sbb dh lame x jogging pastu rase mcm sengal2 badan tp lepas tu dh ok dah..tp yg xbestnye,org yg lalu lalang kt situ senyum mcm perli sbb xsampai 20 kali lari dh jln slow..hahaha

on the way back ...

the silhouette shadow..

airport view...there's a Firefly landing on the runaway tract

After that, we went to have some REFRESHMENT at pasar pagi which was like 3km from the airport...hohoho, best giler pasar ni..all the typical foods of Kelantan was brought to our eyes and somehow, ada certain food yg xpernah aku nmpak pon ade jual gak. Makanan kat sini murah sgt2 lepas tu sedap plak..for "un-local people" mcm aku ni, most of the foods like kuih2 sgt manis giler, seriously;

WARNING TO ALL DIABETICS!!

(particularly type II)

sayangi pancreas anda :)

Let me take u on a food-ride!! hahaha

example of kuih muih..

mostly dijual dgn harga

4 biji = RM1

WARNING: sape x suke manis, dinasihatkan jgn beli :)

another kuih muih...sedap kan??

ni wajik ker??

ntah la aku pon xpasti

yg aku sgt2 pasti

tgk rupanya

SGT MANIS...

ewww

laksa and laksam

which is which?? hehehe

price from RM1-RM1.50 (wahh giler murah)

1 thing i would like to remind,

once u eat it,

u're going to crave it for more!!!

roti jala..

price: RM1-RM1.50

seriously i dont like roti jala (not in the pic)

but my fren says it's nice..

one thing about east coast ppl region,

dorang pagi2 breakfast makan heavy

xmcm kt KL yg mkn roti canai, cereal, nasi lemak

tp, aku xdpt sesuaikan diri mkn berat waktu pg

so, aku mkn skit je

ps: sikit.. :)

lauk pauk mkn dgn nasi dagang, kerabu, nasi minyak pon ade gak

mcm2 nasi dorang makan

sedap plak tgk lauk2 ni lol

again and again..

sedap pun sedap gak

suasana tmpat makan

sbb tmpat2 ni

didominasi oleh golongan adam

agak pelik kalau nmpak sorang dua hawa kt sini

tp buat bodo je..kah3..

ps: prmpuan dlm gmba ni org luar..kalau xsilap ar

makan time hahaha

Dah lepas mkn tu, bole plak nk beli roti canai..tp roti canai kt sini special skit..mini roti canai 3 for RM1..sedap gak..

mane ade dlm dunia ni ade jual cmni???

lolx

ni dia..

bersama si penebar sporting giler haha

sabar menuggu..

on the hot pan..

another typical foods of kelantan

On the way back to UMK, mcm cite menjadi isu..kejap nk g Pulau perhentian la, Sabah la..huhu layan je la..dh smpai UMK, i was frantically excited with many little kitties at Blok 6. Pantang nmpak kucing terus g pegang..sebagai VET, aku kenelah bermesra dgn bakal patience aku hehe :)

baru lepas nursing dgn mummy dorang

5 little kitties..

guess what??

2 mother!!

tp mummy2 kucing xde dlm ni

segan nk bergmba

ngee~

si oren: weh, ko nmpak mak x?

si tompok: mane aku taw?? bukan mak ade dgn ko td?

buat bodoh lg sekor tu..buat2 xnmpak adik kene buli

this caught my eyes..

comeyyyy :)

Anyway, today is one of the good days in Kelantan. Wish it never end. Hopefully we will come again. Millions thanks to my buddies. Thanks to Allah, yg menjaga keselamatan kami pergi dan balik :)

OMG, english presentation progress : 0.oo%

Attention to: En. Akmal, Miss Munshi, Miss Rehan and Miss shud

bile kita nk buat ni??

adeihhh

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1,2,3..get set go!

Labels: expression

Last night was a blast,

The week of sadness had finally blown away

Thanks to Dr Azam and Dr Jasbir for giving us such a tremendous support

for us to stay together, to become one

to crawl into the pace, that has been awaiting us

That is in the YEAR 2 of veterinary medicine :)

Lepas perjumpaan mentor mentee, i felt a wind of change blowing at my sight. I am afraid...takut ape?? aku takut hari2 yg bakal mendatang...byk cabaran yg perlu aku jumpe lepas ni..result sem 2 x kuar lagi...i felt a bit of relieve because i am not ready to face it yet even though i knew the time will come.Talking about result always send shiver down to my spine...i'll get goosebumps somehow hihi

Dr azam asked me about how i have been so far in this faculty..guess what i have said?

Emotionless

Aku xtaw nape tetibe ayat tu terkeluar dr mulut aku..xterpikir pn psl tu. and i was about to reversed back what im saying tetibe je Prof (xingat nama ngeee~) yg join kami and Dr Azam petang tu ckp..

"emotionless?? do you feel that you made the right decision to enter this faculty??". I was very,,, well totally speecless bila Prof tu ckp cmtu..

OMG..

If I could turn back time, I would say...I am very glad and fortunate to be in this faculty and I have consider all vets are my family. And I will cast all my worries to Dr Azam but I knew exactly what he is going to answer..

"Intan, awak ni negative..." again and again... duhhh

Well that's me :)

Kehadiran junior akan dtg June ni buat aku agak...ntah la, aku mcm xbersedia lg..xtaw nape. I felt a sense a guilt if i say I dont really like it...mungkin dari segi persaingan kot..or something else?? Ya Allah, aku xtaw.. pastu plak subjek2 tahun 2 mcm byk menyusahkan aku tp, insyaAllah bak kata Prof tu, kita kena study smart..huhuhu

Kekosongan rohani

Disebalik hari2 yg mendatang ni,

aku rasa seperti, amal ibadah aku seperti x ikhlas..

i do not know why

i did everything what Allah had instructed

but, why my heart feel lurch?

as if something is going to happen?

I went to surau with my roommate, Siti other day

because i felt lost,

my heart is empty spiritually

when she first asked me, i dont think another second and said YES

after maghrib, the ustaz did some ceramah

even though the ceramah seemed to be quite simple and bersahaja

but i felt like i have gone for ages!

dah lama aku x dgr pengisian rohani mcm ni

rasa seperti aku dh ketinggalan dlm bab2 agama

I'm not perfect, but never tried to be one!! argghh

Thanks to Siti for the invitation,

Good friend always reminds each other

Aku cuba menjadi seorang muslimah yg terbaik di sisi Allah,

walaupun aku tau hal tu xkn jadi serta merta

it takes time and courage,

but i knew there'll always somebody to guide me

to the Sirratul Mustaqim

that is,

My Dear ProBono's! ♥

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to fill what's inside my mind now...

Sepi~ Yuni Shara

Sepi hati terjadi lagi

Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi

Biar senyum hadir di hariku

Namun ini hanya ada di bibir

Di bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti

Walaupun yang lain mau mengerti

Namun berat beban di hidupku

Biarkan saja biar saja

Hanya ku yang tahu

Sejarah cinta dan hidupku

Penuh duri dan banyak ranjau

Butuh kesabaran yang penuh

Untuk tetap kuberdiri

Oh! ada saatnya kubicara

Bila hatiku t'lah bulat

Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua

Aku tetap diam

Oh! sejarah cinta dan hidupku

Penuh duri dan banyak ranjau

Butuh kesabaran yang penuh

Untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh! ada saatnya ku bicara

Bila hatiku t'lah bulat

Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua

Aku tetap diam..

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pengertian kawan atau sebaliknya

Prologue

one of my revolting characters is selfish

aku ni sgt2 selfish..kdg2 pikir diri aku je..org lain susah sgt

memang susah aku nk ubah perangai cmni

but, Allah has endowed me 1 kejadian

that completely turns my selfishness to a helping-wannabe person

tapi itu rahsia Aku dan Allah...cukuplah kalau aku ckp aku masih trauma smpai skng

aku nk berubah~

i want to be loved by my friends and family

I want my present to be appreciated.. :)

no more sadness, i want they to be by my side

Dear F,

awk ckp sy mcm x ikhlas kwn dgn awk

walaupun saya pernah tolak tawaran awk

sy ni sombong ke?

awk ckp, asyik awk je msg saya..sy x penah msg awak

kalau kita ni kawan biasa,

stop send msg bunga2..

sy xmahu beri pengharapan dgn awk

sy pernah tipu awk...sy ckp sy x reply msg awak sebb xde kredit

tp itu untuk awk sedar, yg sy xmahu tersangkut lagi

sy pernah melalui pengalaman "itu"

i was torn apart

its like as if my heart was made of paper

i was drifted apart

but i was strong enough to stand by my own feet

and now, i realised...i am not ready to any relationships..

the time will come...

yg saya paling sakit hati,

bila awk ckp

"simpan la kredit awk tu, sy ni x penting pon"

sampai hati awk ckp cmtu!!

xkan la kalau kawan nk kena setiap mggu anta msg

tanye buat ape??dh mkn ke blum??

i ckp, sy ni student kdg2 masa xde...awk add la fb,ym saya....sy selalunye on 2 bnde ni..kawn2 lain nk cntact sume melalui sini..jgn plak wak ckp sy xlyn awak sebb awk xde 2 bnde ni

awk reply : so,sume ni salah saya??

omg, kalau bole sy nk jerit xkt telinga awk bila awk ckp cmtu

sy pon matikan perbualan kita ckp sy stress skng ni result dh nk kuar..

pastu dah..kita x msg smpai skng...

aku ke yg bersalah?

adakah aku ni sombong?

did i have broken a heart?

tapi ni untuk kebaikan awak...

kalu awak rasa awk nk putuskan hubungan kita

terpulang pada awk..

saya redha..

i just want you to know, sy masih anggap awk sebagai kawan...

adakah itu pengertian kawan disebaliknya?

omg, i am dilemma...

complicated betul pengertian kawan bagi F ni..haishhhhh...

deep inside, aku takut kalau 1 hari aku jadi cm dia ni..

i am afraid of losing a good friend

they are forming a part of me

i wanted to be loved and cared

but not to be controlled

i understand one day, i need to let them go...

wahai hati tabahla..perpisahan itu tetap berlaku..

why are we friends??

Ans : we came from different path, but it has crossed together..thats why we met

ps: to all my friends, just look over your shoulder, i'll be there always... :)

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to mak: the GREATEST mum in the world

Happy Birthday Mak..

Mak, adik rindukan mak

Adik xdapat sambut bday macam kita selalu buat tiap2 tahun

Adik kat sini, struggle untuk masa depan kita

Tapi sekarang ni adik rindu kt mak

rasa nak balik sekarang jugak!!

Ampun Maaf diPinta..

adik selalu lawan cakap mak

adik selalu buat mak sakit hati

adik selalu gaduh dengan mak

adik selalu nak menang

jauh di sudut hati...

DIA yg mengandungkan

DIA yg melahirkan

DIA yg pertama bagi makan

DIA yg menjagaku semasa sakit

DIA yg selalu suap makan smpai besar

DIA yg berikan pendidikan

DIA yg berikan kasih sayang

DIA yg berikan kemewahan

DIA yg berikan segalanya yg ibu lain x mampu berikan kpd anaknya

DIA yg sabar menahan kedegilan

DIA yg selalu buat solat hajat dan istikarah di waktu mlm semata2 untuk peperiksaan anaknya

DIA yg selalu memberikan nasihat

DIA yg selalu berkorban untuk kegembiraan anaknya

tak lain tak bukan...its you.. mak..

kini...

20 tahun berlalu,

mak tetap mcm dulu

masih dengan perangai dulu

tapi masih cantik walau dimamah usia

kali ni, adik nak balas balik apa yg mak abah korbankan!!

adik nk belajar sampai jadi vet!!

pastu kerja and kumpul duit

pastu buatkan 1 istana untuk mak abah tinggal ^^

Doakan kejayaan adik menempuh segala cabaran dalam dunia ni

supaya adik dpt banggakan mak abah and family kita

Norani Ab Ghani..

the first person I've ever laid my eyes on

she's the moon, star and the sun

make the darkness bright

the hero in my soul

to embrace the days of untold stories in my life

you'll always belong to the special place in this heart

with no one else can replace it

because you are,

the Queen of my life...

mak :))

Happy spouse!! wee~

Ps: Happy Birthday Mak, semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki, and may Allah bless you always. :)

~THE GREATEST MY MUM IN MY LIFE...I LOVE YOU!!~

♥ ♥ ♥

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I'll be there before the next teardrop falls

When my thought suddenly reminds of someone, I accidentally remember this song. This song entitled "I'll be there, before the next teardrop falls" performed by Freddy Fender in the late 60's.

Credits to Abah, he's the one introducing this song to me when I was a toddler. I was literally not interested by looking at the title at first but the music drives me crazy. I like oldies love songs ranging from 60's - 80's. I don't know why some people always making fun of me; said I was left behind and "jiwang" hahahaha..so what?? music is the life honey, dont care less what people are going to say.

As I grew older, I got the meaning of all the songs I've been listening since I was a little girl. Truly romantic, and the words are melting oneself down if ever fall in love....

back to the topic

why i like this song??

ANSWER: Relationship

Lets go through the lyrics..

I'll be there before the next teardrop falls

If he brings you happiness
Then i wish you all the best
It's your happiness that matters most of all
But if he ever breaks your heart
If the teardrops ever start
I'll be there before the next teardrop falls

Si te quire de verdad
Y te da felicidad
Te deseo lo mas bueno pa'los dos
Pero si te hace llorar
A mime puedes hablar
Y estare contigo cuando treste estas

I'll be there anytime
You need me by your side
To drive away every teardrop that you cried

And if he ever leaves you blue
Just remember, I love you
And I'll be there before the next teardrop falls
And I'll be there before the next teardrop falls

This is not only about love relationship, but it also can be included in friend relationship. Do we love our friends?? How do we show it to them?? Are we willing to sacrifice to them?? Friends are important part in our life. They are forming half of us and keep us confident embracing the days without parents supervisor....

Aku nak jadi macam dalam lagu ni...caring to all my friends

persoalannya...

Ade ke org yg nak buat cmni kat aku??

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Missed the past, missed my oldself!

aku dah bosan hidup macam ni

hari2 makan, tido, pegi 1-2 kelas pastu balik

my life isnt busy like i've used to be

kalau hari2 camni bole jadi malas

I miss my old self

the one that always going to the library,

always with the books,

always sitting at the quiet place,

always with her mp3

always forgot to silent her phone hehehe

always singing syok sendiri lalalallalalaalala

and always sleep with book-pillow hahaha

Rindunye diri aku yg dulu..

slalu struggle smpai sakit kepala

slalu buat study group

ajar org lain smpai pening-pening

yg slalu focus nk exam

tanpa peduli org lain

yg selalu melalak nak balik umah

study sampai rambut jadi putih

yg selalu lapar mlm2...

yg paling best skali,

xonline fb sebulan!!

itulah pencapaian yg aku sgt2 banggakan dlm usaha menahan nafsu hahaha!!

1 thing i learnt in the past,

if you strive for something,

nothing could stop you!!

i really had had a good time during study week

of course the pressure was strained

but, this is the life i want..being here in the university

tapi, kalau dh busy sgt teringin plak free time

tp dh dpt free time tu x best jugak

so kene 50-50 la..hehehe

tempat ni la yg slalu aku study...sunyi dan terpencil dari org len

kt sini aku nk tido xde sape nk tgk

yg paling best kalau tgh nyanyi tu ramai org xley detect dari mane suara ghaib tu

hahaha

Buku-buku yg byk berjasa...

buku rebutan budak2 vet... the only 1 in the library. buku ni byk berjasa kt aku

red tagged: buku ni x bole pinjam..reference use

slalu gak budak2 vet sorok menyorok buku ni

especially time buat lab report anatomy

sampai sorok kat business shelf

x ke pelik kalu budak2 business tu terjmpe??

hahahaha

teruk benor budak2 vet ni

aku pon same gak menyorok ^^

buku ni slalu kt tgn aku

kalau ade bekas pencil conteng2 tu harap maklum la tu scribble aku

bukan aku scribbled ape2..tujuan belajar gak

huhu

sayang aku kt buku ni..

harga dia?

RM300 keatas..

mak aiii jawabnye kene copy la buku ni

buku veterinary anatomy yg tebal giler

harga RM 1000 keatas (im not joking!!)

susah aku nk paham english buku nih

all the terms susah nk mampos

guna buku ni kalau nk tgk gmba je..

description haram nk paham

nasib baik ada notes prof OM..paham la jugak

buku ni ade 2-3 copy

ade yg bole pnjam, ade yg xley pnjam

biasenye org yg pinjam buku ni during study week je..hehehe

tapi buku ni bagus sebab gmba yg dia bg sgt2 detail

love this book too!!

gambaran jelas betapa sibuknye kami

ps: photo was taken during nutrition test

tp skang ni aku rasa bosan plak x byk kelas...

sem 3 ni...sejarah dgn bi je blajar..

sehari 2 jam kelas

bosan cmni

bole jadi malas aku ni

apa-apa pun..aku rindukan suasana itu dulu...

terima kasih buat rakan-rakan yg membimbing aku ke jalan yg baik, semoga kita tabah menghadapi apa jua halangan, semoga friendship kita kekal selama-lamanya..

ps: result dh nk kuar, debaran kian terasa, semoga Allah kurniakan yg terbaik buat aku, kawan2 aku, dan semoga hati ini tenang menerimanya...

"The worse is not yet to come"

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kenyataan yg belum pasti berlaku..

xtaw nk ckp macam mana

aku xtaw ape yg aku nmpak tu betul ke x?

kalau salah, Alhamdulillah..

kalau betul??

Habislah..

aku selalu yakinkan hati supaya pasrah terima segalanya

tapi kenapa hati ni xbole terima kenyataan??

kenapa kali ni susah sangat?

aku xmahu beri pengharapan

yg akhirnya dikecewakan

tapi skang ni??

aku kecewa dgn diri aku yg x bole terima kenyataan pahit

aku xtaw nk buat mcm mane ni

bende tu dah berlaku

ianya xkan berulang

walaupun aku xsure apa yg aku nmpak tu

tapi hati ini kuat mengatakan yg ianya dusta belaka

but what if my instinct is wrong??

mungkin aku xmahu terima hal itu

and my heart keeps deny

Ya Allah, xpernah aku rase down mcm ni!

kenapa hati aku xnak terima??

sedangkan diri ini sudah pasrah?

kenapa???????

xmampu untuk menulis lagi, aku perlukan ruang untuk bersendirian seketika.. :((

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kemelut perasaan

Hati aku xtenteram sepanjang minggu lepas. sebab?? ni semua gara2 result!!. Jenuh memikirkan ape yg bakal terjadi next week...ok ke result aku? dapat ke aku kekal 3 pointer ke ats?? dean list?? IMPOSSIBLE!! bila aku balik UMK mcm2 berita aku dgr..apa2 pon aku mendoakan yg terbaik untuk kawan2 aku yg mendapat berita sedih..no worries, I will always support you!! aku pon pernah kena mcm dorang masa sem 1. Tp aku bangkit dari kekalahan dan berusaha untuk mendapatkan yg terbaik!!. Mak abah tiap2 hari call tanye mcm mane result, pastu harapan dorang tinggi menggunung. Mak abah, sorry kalau adik x dpt apa yg mak dgn abah mahukan dalam sem 2 ni.. adik pon xtaw. adik dh berusaha sebaik yg mungkin tp hanya Allah yg menilai segala-galanya.

Worries berserk my thought. rasa nk menagis je bila lecturer bgtau yg xde sape dpt A subject histo dgn antomy.. walaupun kalau ada yg A pun dah terang2 aku bukan manusia bertuah tu tapi result yg sebegitu menunjukkan betapa ceteknya ilmu kami. Tapi bak kata kawan aku, we cannot rewrite the past..life must continue. Aku dh pasrah dgn apa yg bakal Allah berikan lepas ni cuma aku harap moga2 aku dapat menerimanya dgn hati yg tabah. Aku dilahirkan untuk susah menerima kenyataan yg pedih tp pengalaman2 lampau yg pedih byk mengajar aku untuk menjadi kuat.

Aku sedang menanti...

kpd kawan2 aku tu, tabahkan hati kamu dan insyaAllah kita fight untuk kamu semua. Aku x rela kita berpisah dan aku nk kita bersama2 mcm selalu!! I miss our togetherness and hopefully kita akan jadi begini sampai tahun kelima pengajian VET!! Korang dh mcm adik beradik aku! walapun ade jugak berlaku salah paham and kdg2 kita masam muka tp hakikatnya...

I LOVE YOU!!!

kamu sahaja penghibur hatiku sepanjang berada diperantau org ini..

Ya Allah, kuatkan hati mereka untuk menerima ujianMu. Jadikanlah mereka insan yg bertuah kerana menerima ujianMu ini. Ya Allah, berpihakkan kemenangan itu kepada kami. Berikanlah mereka peluang sekali lagi untuk mencuba. Aku x mahu perpisahan. Ya Allah, please let our heart stays strong forever, demi persahabatan ini, buat selama-lamanya... Aminn..

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Geram!!!!!

To: somebody...

Dari riak muka ko aku tau ko x suke dgn aku

Apa salah aku dgn ko??

I didnt do anything that hurt u physically!

Ade aku marah kat ko?

Ade aku tengking kat ko?

Ade aku ckp something yg sakit kan hati ko?

Kalau ada ckp je la

tp aku rase xde..sebab aku dgn ko xpenah ade pape

or..

Did i hurt you mentally?

Did my act make u heartache?

kalau ade ckp jela

ni terus menerus buat cmni

penat aku nk jaga perasaan ko

tp ko buat xtau je

ko tetap nak org lain yg pujuk ko

bile ko buat cmni

ade ko pikir perasaan aku?

ade ko pernah pujuk aku masa aku down?

ade ke??

when i try to show my affection,

u simply drifted away,

ko xrase hati aku sakit bile ko buat cmni?

hell no, i dun want ur attention at all

aku cuma harap persahabatan kita mcm biasa

friends r the one where we can share almost everything

tp ko x anggap aku mcm tu!

ko anggap aku ni &%$&*!

ko marah ke aku kawan baik dgn kawan ko?

ko xske sbb ko anggap aku ni perampas kwn ko?

i tell u what

bullsh*t!

aku kawan dgn sesape yg aku suke!

ko xbole buat kawan ko tu hak milik ko sorang!

ko xde hak!!

u hear me??

u have no rights at all!!

aku tau ko sukakan perhatian

tp perangai ko buat org menyampah

pastu mula la mengadu xde kawan la..

pastu bila aku try nk nasihat

ko xnk dgr

ko tetap dgn pendirian ko

stop and listen!

im sick to ur revolting acts!!

penat nk ckp tp ko masih perangai mcm ni

xlangsung hargai org sekeliling yg care dgn ko

ko tetap nk org yg ko suka je

ok..

fine, kalau ko xsuke aku

aku xde hak nk paksa sume org suke aku

especially ko..

im not perfect

im just me, who else can change me?

aku x bole jadi mcm org yg ko suke tu

aku sedar perangai aku xbole buat sume org puas hati

tp aku ada perasaan...halus mcm ko

kdg2 aku ketepikn perasaan ni demi nk jaga hati dn perasaan ko

ade ko kisah?

ade ko appreciate?

never, u're heartless moron!

u're only care certain's feelings

sakit hati bile pengorbanan ini x dihargai..

kalau ko dah x anggap aku ni kawan ko

xpe...aku x kisah

tp beringat-ingatlah

akan ada seseorng akan buat ko jadi macam apa yg ko buat kt aku ni

baru ko tau sakitnye cmne

aku x mendoakan ko jadi mcm tu..

aku waras, ingat pahala dosa

but because u made bleeding wounds in my heart

and never consider to heal it back

then one day u'll know...how much i hurt, because of you..

ps: If u read this, i just want you to know, i dont hate you at all..this is just unspoken voice in my heart. I need to blurted it out..i dont want it be a pus that rotting myself..because i'm still consider you as my friend.

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it's 1.30am in the morning of 5ft April...

Swarming with the mixed up feelings...

I never wanted to grow up!!FULLSTOP!

I never wished to be what I am now

I never dreamed to have what I achieved now

I was just hoping...things are going easy, smoothly, clearly

But they aren't!!

There's always mistakes done

There's always flaws confined in my thoughts

The road wasn't that straight

The path wasn't that right

I was just hoping...that I made the right decision

That brings me a life that I always dreamed on

Dream??

Are they for real??

How many people live up their dream??

How many people gave up their dream??

Can it be achieve by fortune?

or..by a glimpse of an endeavor?

People are dreaming

So am I..

But it wasn't that easy

I've been through up the hill

Down the mountain

To get into this way

That almost close to my dream

I am still travelling to go there

And...

As time goes by

I learnt many important things

That make me close to the Creator

There are few subjects, which are taught by experience-naturally

Family, Friendship, Loveliness, trustworthy...

Bear in mind, I never wanna failed in each subject

But, the fate has failed me

Not once, twice, or trice

But its constant throughout my life

Whenever I failed Family, I always passed Friendship

Whenever I failed Friendship, I always passed Family

Whenever I failed Love, Friendship and family will always help each other

Whenever I failed most of them...I actually failed myself

I hate my own self, when it happened!!

Blame on my ego

Cos' its ruin my pride

Blame on my sensitivity

Cos' it makes me weak

Blame on my temper

Cos' it makes me evil

Blame on my stupidity

That fools my act

All I need...

Whenever I feel unwanted,

There is always a hand

Whenever I feel blue,

There is always a music

Whenever I wanted to cry

There's always a shoulder to cry on

Whenever I feel hurt,

There is always a antidote

But who give them all??

The answer is YOU....the best things ever happened in my life

Ps: Ditujukan khas buat rakan-rakan tersayang

I always love you

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Jogging and eating

1,2,3..get set go!

to fill what's inside my mind now...

pengertian kawan atau sebaliknya

to mak: the GREATEST mum in the world

I'll be there before the next teardrop falls

Missed the past, missed my oldself!

kenyataan yg belum pasti berlaku..

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Geram!!!!!

it's 1.30am in the morning of 5ft April...