Prologue
aku ni sgt2 selfish..kdg2 pikir diri aku je..org lain susah sgt
memang susah aku nk ubah perangai cmni
but, Allah has endowed me 1 kejadian
that completely turns my selfishness to a helping-wannabe person
tapi itu rahsia Aku dan Allah...cukuplah kalau aku ckp aku masih trauma smpai skng
aku nk berubah~
i want to be loved by my friends and family
I want my present to be appreciated.. :)
no more sadness, i want they to be by my side
Dear F,
awk ckp sy mcm x ikhlas kwn dgn awk
walaupun saya pernah tolak tawaran awk
sy ni sombong ke?
awk ckp, asyik awk je msg saya..sy x penah msg awak
kalau kita ni kawan biasa,
stop send msg bunga2..
sy xmahu beri pengharapan dgn awk
sy pernah tipu awk...sy ckp sy x reply msg awak sebb xde kredit
tp itu untuk awk sedar, yg sy xmahu tersangkut lagi
sy pernah melalui pengalaman "itu"
i was torn apart
its like as if my heart was made of paper
i was drifted apart
but i was strong enough to stand by my own feet
and now, i realised...i am not ready to any relationships..
the time will come...
yg saya paling sakit hati,
bila awk ckp
"simpan la kredit awk tu, sy ni x penting pon"
sampai hati awk ckp cmtu!!
xkan la kalau kawan nk kena setiap mggu anta msg
tanye buat ape??dh mkn ke blum??
i ckp, sy ni student kdg2 masa xde...awk add la fb,ym saya....sy selalunye on 2 bnde ni..kawn2 lain nk cntact sume melalui sini..jgn plak wak ckp sy xlyn awak sebb awk xde 2 bnde ni
awk reply : so,sume ni salah saya??
omg, kalau bole sy nk jerit xkt telinga awk bila awk ckp cmtu
sy pon matikan perbualan kita ckp sy stress skng ni result dh nk kuar..
pastu dah..kita x msg smpai skng...
aku ke yg bersalah?
adakah aku ni sombong?
did i have broken a heart?
tapi ni untuk kebaikan awak...
kalu awak rasa awk nk putuskan hubungan kita
terpulang pada awk..
saya redha..
i just want you to know, sy masih anggap awk sebagai kawan...
adakah itu pengertian kawan disebaliknya?
omg, i am dilemma...
complicated betul pengertian kawan bagi F ni..haishhhhh...
deep inside, aku takut kalau 1 hari aku jadi cm dia ni..
i am afraid of losing a good friend
they are forming a part of me
i wanted to be loved and cared
but not to be controlled
i understand one day, i need to let them go...
wahai hati tabahla..perpisahan itu tetap berlaku..
why are we friends??
Ans : we came from different path, but it has crossed together..thats why we met
ps: to all my friends, just look over your shoulder, i'll be there always... :)
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